January already gone....

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Well the 1st month of 2020 is gone and I have not done one thing that I had hoped too. I am very upset with myself.

Oh and it's the superbowl. The Super Bowl is one of those things that I tend to be oblivious about. I don't think I even watched one ever, not even the half time shows. I have heard about them afterwards. But its never been something I sought out. To be honest I don't think I ever watched a football game. I am so weird I don't even care about the commercials. (I can hear my mother and cousins gasping now). I am this year planning to check out the commercials, to see what the big deal is.

I really need to start being more productive. I truly want a better life.

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