Missing my Joie de vivre

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I have lost my Joie de vivre. I don't seem to feel anything for most part. I don't feel happy, sad, or even angry. I just feel blank. I feel like I am just walking in this world, not really connecting to it anymore. I love my friends and family of course. I just feel like I can't give them what they deserve. I feel out of sorts. 

I think this started sometime this year. When covid hit, I started paying attention to the news. I started to realize things are like I had thought they were. In many ways my beliefs changed. It was a jolt to the system. I now have a completely different outlook about the world, and it has taken some getting use to. 

Now I have had a few enjoyments. I recently saw Cruella, and loved it. (not for kids, though) Also making the picture above, I enjoyed. 

Now that opens another kettle of fish. I use to be addicted to second life. At one time it was an escape. I was lonely and I hated my life. So it was very easy to dive head first in it. I am not lonely I like my life now. I love my fiancée, I enjoy my job. Things are a lot different. But still can't seem to find that get up and go. I feel I am missing purpose, meaning and passion in my life.  


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